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With the opening of a drawer…

I was in an antique store this week and saw a section of an old library card index system. It was worn oak with brass knobs which had place holders to insert the indexing for each drawer. The smell from the opened drawer was a mix of deteriorating wood and musty paper. I remember going to the library as a kid and pulling a step stool up to look things up in the “A” drawer on top. The cross-referencing of title, subject, and author to another drawer always intrigued me. For some reason, I always had to test that the cross-referenced card would be there when I looked but it was always there. Jack London, The Call of the Wild, action adventure-fiction. Each drawer I went to referenced another drawer as promised.

I remembered the card file “gatekeeper.” She seemed to me to be ancient with her gray hair and black military glasses. She left a chemical and lotion scent as she walked away like a laced formaldehyde trail. Always in earshot of the card files, as you inched out a drawer you heard, “Do you need help?” It always scared the bejesus out of me like a ghost in the closet. I knew she would be there but she always caught me off guard.  I thanked her and assured her (with a ten year old’s command of language) that I could find what I was looking for and I  received a stern warning  not to remove the cards from the file. I found it funny that I saw her daily removing cards from that file and pulling books from shelves. Later I found out that she pulled the cards and books when they were leaving the floor to be discarded. I guessed there was a sort of a book cemetery in that basement with a  beat up old card file holding all those bent and beat up cards until their time was really up.  The books were lined on unpainted shelves in quietly darkened rooms.Were the words in those books no good any more? Was the paper in them to weak to be turned any longer?

Papered cards and files no longer set in rows in the library alcove. Now, you enter the library and go to computers and tap in the author’s name, subject or title, and the screen fills with dozens or hundreds of options to choose from. It lists books available and one’s that are not. The screen shows all the same information as the card files did and more. The type is clear and legibly static on the page with a picture of the book you want. I miss the surprise of not knowing whether the book had an engraved gold leaf cover or a sewn binding on a shelf. The old card files sometimes had fingerprints, smudge marks, and writing that was not always legible. The print was different on some cards, and the pens used were thick or thin, black ink or number two pencil lead. The writing sometimes shaky and lazy or uniform and crisp. These subtle differences in each catalog card reminded me of all the hours put in by men and women who respected books. In one way or another their efforts and focus on organizing the work of so many authors made my trip to the library a treasure hunt. In a split second of looking at vintage furniture, with the swift opening of a cracked oak drawer, after inhaling a musty odor,  I recalled a decade of happy times spent in the book stacks at the local library.

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Perspective

Tonight, having had a bad day, I went to the movies alone. I often find escaping to a theatre, lights low, music loud, allows me to escape momentarily from things I don’t want to think about in my own life.  In this case, I sat and watched the movie “Argo” unfold. I was transported back to the seventies, with the pork chop sideburns, the bell bottoms, polyester suits, and large collared shirts.  The late seventies held my transition into puberty and many scenes on television of the middle east burning the American flag and parading American citizens around Tehran blindfolded. The Iran Hostage crisis new reels were not just a history lesson for me as it was for some in the theatre tonight. I remember it vividly. I remember questioning for the first time why I was hated because I was American when I thought it was the best place in the world. Politics were not as important to me as who I sat with on the bus in the morning. I had sugar on my cocoa wheats and all seemed right from my side of the world. Yet, on television we saw women covered in sheets and men with beards screaming obscenities about our country. The 52 hostages were paraded in front of cameras to show the power of the rebellious Iranian students. I felt an anger rising toward a cultural group, much like they had voiced toward us. The lines were being drawn and I was not sure why, but knew what side of the line I was on.  Eight service men died trying a failed rescue attempt, and their bodies were paraded unmercifully  in front of cameras in spectacle. Yes, in my mind the line was drawn that day. I had enemies for the first time.

My enemy was targeted, but Argo was a little off the mark. Argo is not completely accurate, filled with dramatic and creative non-fiction about the staging of the rescue. However, the story of the six that got out, with the efforts of the Canadians and a few of our CIA operatives after a few months hidden in Tehran, was dramatically told.  The script was engaging, the action was tense, and the dramatic scenes broke me out in a sweat as I waited on the edge of my seat for the six to barely escape capture.  It was not a story that I knew much about. The 52 hostages had taken center stage, and the Canadians took the credit for the escape of the early six. Regardless of the accuracy, this movie not only brought a real life tension to an incredible story, but it allows for many who may not have been alive at this time to view a small part of a bigger story of cultural and social tensions still very much alive today.

Tensions are still high between Iran and America. Although, I cannot say that I still feel any bold hatred for a people who have known many hundreds of years of war and poverty.  Only one year ago, two American hikers were released from Iran after being held for two years because they wondered across the wrong border.  The incidents and the tensions will not likely ever cease between the middle east and the U.S.  This picture forces the public to re-evaluate our citizens roles in effecting foreign politics, our roles as Americans in electing our government leaders, and our roles as citizens in our democracy.  It is appropriate that I saw this movie today, the day before elections.  It is appropriate that I saw this movie the same day as some bad news was received from the IRS regarding an audit. However large we see our personal problems, they are not as big as the world’s problems. I will take an audit any day of the week versus living in a war torn country where I cannot speak my mind, where I have to keep my head covered, where I cannot speak against government leaders without risking harm to my family or myself.  So, no matter what your taste in politics, vote. Vote because YOU CAN.

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